I am going to come right out and say that I failed 75 Hard. 10 days until the finish line, I just stopped. Mentally, I was fine. I wasn’t depressed. I wasn’t stressed out. I made the conscious decision to stop. Hard core 75 Hard enthusiasts will say that my “bitch voice” got the better of me. Maybe. I’ve had some time to think about it, and I’ve come to terms with it. I failed and that’s fine. I was at day 65 when I realized I wasn’t fulfilling 75 Hard the way I wanted to. It’s not enough to complete 75 Hard. I need to conquer it.
Since Stopping 75 Hard
It’s been maybe two weeks since I’ve officially failed the 75 Hard challenge. Since then, I struggle to drink even a glass of water a day, I binge eat like crazy, and I’m tired all the time. Go figure, if I’m eating absolute garbage, I’m going to feel like garbage. My health isn’t the only thing that I’ve seen has struggled. My productivity is at an all time low. I don’t want to do anything around the house (minus renovating my step-daughter’s bedroom). I’m not even going to dive into my procrastination with not wanting to do school work. Some of you may have noticed as well that I haven’t posted a TBR for the month of June. That is one thing that I did not like about the challenge. I don’t really like reading non-fiction books. Having to force myself to read 10 pages a day seemed to kill my desire to want to pick up a book. Even as I’m writing this, I have a stack of books that I have tried to pick up within the last week and I’m just not into it. That’s sad.
As much as I dread those days where I only get 4 hours of sleep, I want to give 75 Hard another try. I honestly was the happiest I’ve been in a while while doing all that. I was better at planning out my days and my meals. I got shit done! That being said, I’m going to start over. It’s back to working out twice a day, drinking 128 ounces of water a day, and reading 10 pages of non-fiction. This isn’t something for me to dread. This is a chance for me to get my health back on track. It’s time to buckle down and put in the work.