I feel like a dog tucking my tail between my legs after being gone for so long. My last post was in May and it was a haphazard workout calendar thrown together. And you want to know a secret? I did maybe half the workouts.
This year has been a rollercoaster. Some good. Some catastrophic. But this past weekend I hide a lightbulb moment where I realized I wanted off that damn rollercoaster.
Back in January I eluded to starting a new job. I’m still with the same company, but I started my new position in April as a process specialist. New hours and schedule. I still have bad days where I second guess myself but for the most part I’m having a blast. All those years annoying engineering and maintenance finally paid off!
The first few months was a struggle as I tried to find a balance between work and home. I started to let my passion for my job impact my home life which sent me into a dark place for a while. However, I’ve backed off on my hours and started “spreading the love” so to speak by saying no to extra projects at work. There are still weeks where I’m stretching my hours but then I balance it by taking a full day away and keep my laptop tightly zipped up in my bag.
The biggest win for me this year was the progress I’ve made in the treatment of my endometriosis. Back in January I switched doctors. Not only was I tired of the drive ( an hour versus ten minutes), I was exhausted being told there was nothing they could do for me. So I took the plunge and switched. And I’ve never been happier. No more throwing up. No more long nights of crying and just wanting life to be over. I would say no more pain but there are days when I still cramp. Since I’ve never experienced a “normal” period, I can only guess that the cramps I do get are normal. It’s still a long road. I had some symptoms that I had been ignoring for years, thinking it was normal that my new doctor is now monitoring closely. But I’m more optimistic now than ever.
As far as my fitness and weight, I haven’t been going too hard on my workouts and my diet has been all over the place. I haven’t binged but I also haven’t been keeping a close eye on my intakes. Thankfully, even with the inconsistency with my routines I’ve been able to maintain at 160 lbs. I am in the process of making a few changes so hopefully I can find a new routine.
Finding Ways to Have Fun
I miss reading and writing. NaNoWriMo is coming up and I don’t want to miss the biggest writing celebration of the year. What I want, is to get back to being me. Discover new hobbies. My family has been slowly rekindling their passion for Pokemon and I’m not ashamed to admit that I may have jumped on the bandwagon with them. I’ve also picked up journaling. For my birthday this year my husband bought me a switch. It’s really fun as the core group that I work with all have switches so it’s our way of de-stressing after work.
The most important thing I’m trying to do is maintain this balance.
I feel at peace most days.
Thank you so much for reading and sticking with me even on my hiatus. I appreciate you more than you know!